From Erick

UNTITLED
Laying in my bed tonight
dreaming of you
I wish you were here for me
to express my love so true
Words mean much
yet nothing can hold the heart
Like a soft tender touch
from the one who loves you
My heart is yours
for now and evermore
By your side is my place
in this hectic race
that we call life
A lull I have found in your arms
and there I will be
from now and through eternity
I love you Amie and my heart belongs to you
til I can again be with you forever

That was the first thing I ever wrote for Amie. And the first time I heard
her cry. It was amazing to hear her voice break up. She sounded so vulnerable and I would have given anything at all to be able to hold her tight and kiss the tears from her eyes.

This next one was one of the first poems that Amie sent me. I slept with it under my pillow for a long time.

AS ONE
In the gloom of silence
In the echo of loneliness
I seek you, I guest your company
I open myself to you

Wandering the dark caravans of my heart
I search for the paintings of you by touch
I feel the texture of love with my hands
I smooth the pain and roughness away

I follow the scent of your body
Through the corridors of my soul
I breathe deep, I feel the crispness of the air
My mind remembers the ecstasy never felt

I stumble hearing your emotional cries
I listen in the hallways of my mind
I hear your breathing, words of care
I hear your moans of pleasure, of desire

I open my eyes and see yours
I admire the insight within you
My eyes feast upon your being
Drowning in the hunger I can never quench

My body leans close
My lips brush yours, gently, fiercely
I sample the reality of love
I wish to taste more to taste you

In the light of company
In the caress of togetherness
I have you, my quest is complete
We close ourselves around each other

Your love I found
Our lives are complete

This next one I wrote one night when I was feeling very depressed and alone. I'm not sure why but I was feeling very empty at the time. And then after I wrote this I felt renewed and very very happy. I'm not much of a poet so to speak but I find that writing and expressing my feelings through words is a wonderful outlet for emotions.

UNTITLED
Slowly turn the pages of my life
each day something new
A new surprise I find in you
yet another small reason to love you more
As closer we speed to the day you arrive
I wait breathless
til your heart I can hold
in outstretched hands
A place it finds with me
Til the end of time

With this one I was looking for some way to compliment everything about
Amie that I loved, or some of the things, for the whole list would take me
years to write and more paper than exists on this earth. There was something about her that just grabbed my attention. The way she did everything or spoke of anything was with so much LIFE. She was always happy and upbeat. She had the most beautiful smile, enough to make the nastiest person happy. Even through all the hard times in her life Amie was one person who never once gave up. There were so many wonderful things about her, and this poem covers mostly some of her physical attributes but beyond this there are thousands upon thousands of wonderful little features and quirks original to her and completely wonderful. Some shared only with me and I will cherish them always.

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Your voice
Your eyes
Your hair
Your tears running down
your cheeks when you cry
The way you say you love me
The time I spend with you
The way you smile
Your lovely body
The way I want nothing more
than to brush your hair back from
your eyes and kiss you tenderly
And whisper I love you in your beautiful
ear so soft that only you can hear
I love you with all my heart
my sweet little angel
You light up my life
You are the reason I smile each day
You are always in my heart
and in my dreams
I love you Amie and
will be here forever

With this next one I was waxing romantic and trying to be eloquent. This one is not even close to a poem, it is just a collection of feelings all wrapped up in a paragraph. Whenever I saw anything beautiful or special, I would automatically wonder what it would be like to be looking at it with Amie, and how much having her there would dull the beauty of all around her, for she was the most beautiful thing in all of creation. LOL. She would always tell me that I was looking through rose tinted glasses, but I would always say that I was in love with her and that is all that matters.
This was an email I sent her on the 29th of May after 2 months of being together.

Hello baby,
I was watching the sunrise start as I walked tonight, or this morning, whatever you want to call it. I have determined that there is nothing that can compare to its beauty but for one thing, your heart holding mine forever captive in its silken bonds of love. As the sun chased the moon from the sky I wondered what sky you were looking at at that exact same moment.
One day I wish to hold you in my arms under one starlit sky. I wished upon one tonight, a star that was shining bright, I wished that I could hold you close through the still of the night, into the dawning of a new day for you and me. My love for you grows every day Amie and I find myself looking at things in a new light.....the light you provide for my heart and soul.
You make each day bearable, just the thought of you or the dream of you whispering "I love you" in my ear. The thought of you curled up in bed breathing softly just melts me in an undescribable way...when you cry I feel as if I could just reach out my hand to brush away the tears or lean close to kiss you softly, Whisper in your ear that I love you and tell you everything will be ok. Each night I fall asleep I dream of one day being by your side for all eternity....our love will keep us strong for all time.

I love you Amie Lu-ellen. With all my heart.

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most of them written after Amie's death

This page was made by Shari on Wednesday 29th December 1999