PERFECT LIFE
Heartache made real
tragedy inspired
meaningless scribbles on paper
A true love
spoken, felt, never expressed
life is easy
living is hard
Perfection not known to me
so close to you
smile so amazing
warm in love
Cold now so cold
heart lives still
Life gone by without a touch
never touched
never held
Sleep with your words
caress your voice
missed so perfect
not a mark
not a stain
white is your soul
driven as snow
Smudged by perfection
drown out my fear
dying alone
Sleeping so soft
close to my heart you know
I am not perfect
save my love for you

NICOTINE
Burn like loves flame
open my heart
Blacken my mind
breath
Thoughts fly away
cough
they float to you
coursing my veins
flow in my blood
jolting reality
Pinch myself to see if I sleep
killing my body
what does it matter
the sooner I die
the sooner love returns
To be with you again
worth more than life
Living in dreams
harsh reality a slap
end this pain
this cancer called life
Sleep the forever away
two become one
There is no end
Forever

EMPTY
Pit of my soul
darkness my heart
no light
no sound
lost all my senses
Blindly searching thru the night
wait for day when I can see
with you gone
meaningless
wander endlessly no feeling
numb
blink it's gone
what possessed me now lost
Gone with the snow
Awake without you
sleep in silence
so cold so alive
reaching from deaths door
one last kiss
caress your face
direction eludes me
Nowhere to go
dreaming of sleep
heartless now
love torn down
Foundations stripped of life
Love made from living
nothing more for me
alone and empty
I sleep forever

NO REGRETS
Not a thing passed by
in my life
Carpe Diem
Sieze the day
As each door of oppurtunity
is knocked upon
I open it to try something new
Things I swore never to do is how I met you
If new experiences in life are as perfect as you
There is no reason
to go back and change
something so true
Having you in my life
So wonderful so pure
Going back to the day we met
never did I see
what would happen to you and to me
My life you became
My heart you held captive
Nothing to lose in this
life that we choose
Yet lost is our chance
At life together

TODAY I FLY
Feeling the sky
brush past my face
Looking down upon the human race
colors flash bright
before my ears
Voices clamor
sight shatters
alone up here
my soul feels so clear
Where to go tomorrow
your love shall lead me
never go astray
touching earth I can feel
your love that makes life so real
guide me thru this maze
keep me sane
I have lost the one thing
the trueness of being
that you brought to me
has departed this day
Complete yet torn apart
Never alive as a whole
Fragments
My heart soars to be with you
leaving life this day
for now I fly
up with you
Wings of gold brush my face
Lord let me never leave this place
With you!